How Did I Get Here?

So my daughter emailed me and told me to post already.  I never know what to say on these things.


Do you ever wonder how you got to where you are today?  I wonder that every day.  Sometimes, I think about it so much, I get so depressed, I just want to crawl back in bed.  I try to think of the good days but I still can't figure out how I got here.  I know I was born and went to school and played with my friends then graduated from high school then went to college and by a miracle graduated from there too.  I know I met the love of my life shortly after I graduated and that I worked as a social worker for 20 years and I have a daughter who is my best friend.  Then, I know, the love of my life died.  I know I have 2 grandchildren and a son-in-law and that I sit in my room and play WoW and play with my grandchildren and drive everyone crazy and that weeks pass and I don't know where they went. But I still don't know how I got HERE.

Starting my Blog

I thought for a long time that I would like a place to share my thoughts and experiences in the hopes of getting feedback and to maybe help someone else.  My 49 years have been quite a journey to say the least.  I wanted a place where I could say the things I've not been able to share with those closest to me.  I don't have the gift of prose and my ramblings will probably take off in all kinds of directions.

 Due to my upbringing, I've never felt comfortable with talking about experiences, thoughts and hopes for the future.  I've suffered with depression all of my life.  I'm a procrastinator and have memory problems.  I'm overweight and I smoke and I have poor self control.  I'm also the best and the worst mother, daughter and human being.

I want to improve in all those areas and wanted a way to chronicle either my success or my failure.  I sure hope it ends up being a success story.

So there you go, my first blog post.  I hope you jump on board and share this journey with me.